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Makin banyak rahsia yang dicerita orang dengan kita, makin banyak beban yang perlu dipikul. Kita terpaksa simpan rahsia tersebut dan banyak berbohong. Huhhhh.. beban eh beban.. Sakit jua hentam nya. Dah nama rahsia nda, ney boleh bcerita dengan orang. Dengan blog tok jak lah pakei ku meluahkan perasaan.

Rahsianya ialah.... Dah aku taip dlm entry sebelum entry tok tp sik d publish coz rasa berat jua nak publish nya.. Rahsia tek nak owhh..

Ya jak lah nak ku madah, semadi nak update blog tok.. Lama dah x post entry baru.

Bali, wait for me~

Singapore!

Bukan apa nong, kadang-kadang apapun boleh berlaku ba. And I still remember masa my vacation pegi KK awal tahun tadi ngan kawan2, and suddenly I received a call from my mom and she told that my grandma passed away. Waktu malam gik ya, so no flight balik Kuching. Esok pagi, first flight aku beli tiket balit. Keesokkan hari selepas balit is my grandma funeral. Mun aku balit ikut ku pun actual flight ya, nang x akan sempat aku nangga muka grandma for the last time. Apa2 pun memang family adalah lebih penting dari cuti ya tek nda. Ujian dari Tuhan ba. Rest in peace Inik.

Dengan itu sekian sahaja catatan saya hari ini, D-ear-y.. Akan kembali lagi ke udara akan datang! See u again D-ear-y!

Woww... Few months I didn't update my blog. Seems like it was yesterday  my last entry. Well~ whatever..

Okay, simple update from me. Ceta basik nong.

Last month:
Sangat aktif yuhh.. Berjogging segala. Lepas ya, training futsal lagik koh. Sik pernah ngan orang futsal pun boleh ngan jua. What to do, terpaksa ba, company ada polah sport, lekak ya tek na, rumah sukan sik cukup orang, maka akulah yang terpaksa main. I was worried with my knee actually, dats why I didn't want to play. Selepas dipujuk rayu, so I agreed. Sangat letih semasa perlawanan ya ariya. Walaupun rumah sukan kalah for futsal, tapi tetap berpuas hati jua lah.

August
Busy training bowling pulak dah. Lama dah ku sik meraba buah bowl ya koh. Sampai sik tau dah how to play. Last main bowling pun, I think more than 10 years dah.. Dolok masa sekolah rendah, banyak geng2 lepas habis sekolah pergi main bowling. Siney agik mun sik kat Crystal Bowling sia, kan sekolah dekat jak.. Hehe..
Kinetok, hurmm.. mala jak nyapu parit. Tapi kan, nasib bait ada coach yang ajar main bowling, so dah dapat improvement in bowling. But of coz need a lot of practice. Practice makes perfect☺. Next month after raya, our tournament start. Rasa kurang yakin pun ada, coz I'm not satisfied with my points. Huh.

Okeylah, sampai tok aja.. Malasku nak naip panjang2.. hehe

Adios~

27th February 2011, my grandmother passed away.
Sik dapat aku nak meneruskan menaip kat sitok, even tengah menaip pun air mata tergugok. So, I'm gonna paste the poem i get from internet, just for my grandma. I miss you so much....

If tears could build a stairway,
and memories a lane,
I’d walkright up to heaven
and bring you home again.

 

 

Goodbye At Last

by Barbi D

Saying goodbye is never easy
It's the hardest thing to do
But what hurts even more
Is not the chance to say it to you.

Yesterday is just a memory
Our laughter was sunny and bright
Then clouds started to gather
For you were no where in sight.

You were my first real love
And this I will never forget
How you left without a warning
No good-byes, my only regret.

Wherever I may be now
Always searching for another so true
To place my world of emotion
Handing my love to someone like you.

If again I must go there
And experience all the pain
I would do it in a minute
For all the good I would gain.

No matter what my wrongs
You offered only love
Until the day you left me
For your new home up above.

I know you still are with me
Your love is within my heart
Though life is no longer present
Our souls will never part.

This is given to you in honor
Of all that we did share
I just wanted you to know, dear,
How much I really did care.

 May your soul rest in peace. Though you are no longer in this world, but you always in our heart & those memories you left too.

(from Google)

Bukan salah aku pabila aku menjadi senyap.

Dan bukan salah aku pabila aku banyak berahsia.

Bukan salah aku pabila kau sik tau hal aku.

Bukanlah salah aku pabila aku semakin jauh dari kau.

Sebab~

Kau sik pernah ambil kisah pun hal aku.

Kau sik pernah tanya pun berita aku, bagus ke sik.

Kau akan menukar topik pabila aku menanya pendapat.

Kau akan mengelak pabila aku ingin meluahkan perasaan.

Dan~

Kau cuma mahu orang dengar apa masalah kau sahaja.

Kau cuma mahu orang yang beri pendapat dengan kau.

Kau cuma bercakap hal kau pabila ada benda yang kau mahu 'show-off'.

Kau suka 'compete' dengan orang, kau sahaja lah yang paling bagus & sempurna, kau sorang jak lah yang ada.

Aku tidak mahu berlawan.

Aku tidak mahu mengeruhkan keadaan.

Aku mengalah.

Dan izinkan aku mengundur diri...

Biarkan aku hidup begini.... Aku bahagia...

(from Google)